i'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
i don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure
of walking in your shoes
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
every step that i take is another mistake to you
i've
become so numb
i can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
i'm becoming this
all i want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you
can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly
afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought i would be
has fallen apart right in front of you
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
every step that i take is another mistake to you
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
and every second i waste is more than i can take
but i know
i may end up failing too
but i know
you were just like me
with someone disappointed in you
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Song of the day
Monday, November 2, 2009
My Own Halloween Parade
This, my friends, is my own personal Halloween Parade, happening right within the folds of my brain and those poor neurons can't stop firing.
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Geeks can click!
This year, a bunch of people from the list decided to bring out a photobook to showcase the enormous talent that is held within Microsoft. A photo contest of sorts was announced and people were encouraged to enter upto 5 photographs shot by them, for consideration. This resulted in the submission of more than 900 photographs out of which 150 or so were selected to appear in the book. The result is this fabulous book, featuring high quality photos by Microsoft employees across the world, titled "Photographers@Microsoft 2009", published by Blurb (Click for a full, but low-res preview of the book). It has already sold numerous copies and is featured as a "Staff Pick" at www.blurb.com
What is more, the steering committee teamed up with United Way of King County and the Giving Campaign 2009 to give proceeds from the sale to charity. This book is offered for purchase at the cost of printing plus $25.00. This additional amount is contributed directly to United Way in your name and is fully tax deductable as a charitable contribution. Even if you don’t think you’ll buy a copy of the book, go take a look at the online preview anyway. It really is amazing!
By the way, this picture of mine below is in the book, too.
Geeks can click stuff other than a mouse button! :)
PS: This is the second time this year, something I did has been published, the other being a paper in CASES 2009. :)
Sunday, September 13, 2009
The alarm didn't sound...
That's how I feel today.
Monday, August 24, 2009
Faith factory
"Daddy, why are we going to the temple?", Rohan sulked.
"Because it is your birthday today, Rohan. God wants to wish you a Happy Birthday!".
"Why can't god wish me at home?", Rohan quipped.
"Hush! Stop sulking, or God will punish you. We are almost at the temple. It is God's house, so be at your best behavior, OK, son?"
"Alright, daddy", said Rohan, his voice quivering from the unexpected scolding. After all, he thought he was being reasonable with his questions.
They entered the temple and made their way as close as the crowd would allow.
"Ok, son. Now hold your hands together and repeat the prayer after me, Ok? When I bend down, you also have to bend down.", coached dad.
"Daddy, why do we pray?", asked Rohan.
"Because all good people pray, and you are a good person, aren't you?", explained dad.
"But daddy, my friend Ganesh is also a very good boy, but he doesn't pray.", argued Rohan.
"Shush, Rohan! You are becoming more and more irritating with your questions everyday! You cannot talk this way in a holy place! Come now, be a good boy and pray and I promise you a nice gift for your birthday!", said dad, silencing little Rohan.
"But daddy......", began Rohan, only to find that his protest was drowned by the sound of bells and chimes and chants that had just began. The grand prayer, or aarti, had started.
Rohan watched the crowd around him, some singing, some chanting schlokas in Sanskrit, some making queer lip movements, some lying on the floor with their eyes closed, some just staring ahead with their palms held together in a gesture of worship.
"Surely, prayer must be necessary", thought Rohan, "or why would so many people come to temples?", his curiosity bettering his dislike for crowds. And the lure of a surprise gift was tempting too.
"Come son, let me lift you. Take a good look at God, hold your palms together, like this, and repeat after me, Ok?", said dad.
Rohan felt his dad's strong arms lift him over the masses. He loved being lifted. He enjoyed the clear, unobstructed view of what lay ahead, that being lifted allowed him to enjoy. Not to mention being lifted allowed him to ring the "holy bell" and he loved doing that. He felt guilty about irritating his dad earlier.
As they were walking back home, dad said to Rohan, "You know, you are a very good boy. All good boys go to temple regularly and pray. Mummy will also be very happy. And I'll also tell granny what a nice, obedient boy you are. She has something nice in store for you today!"
" We will come to the temple every Thursday from now on, Ok?", added dad.
"Yes, daddy", said Rohan absent-mindedly, excited at the prospect of what his family had got for him. "Perhaps it is that toy car from the store down the road", thought Rohan with anticipation.
"I love you, daddy".
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
A letter to Rain.
Its been a long time I've seen you. Hope you are doing well. I suppose you've been on vacation from Seattle, for the last month or so. We sure do miss you here. Your colleague, Wind, also decided to take vacation, leaving the inexperienced Breeze behind. With you and Wind gone, Sun has gone back to his autocratic behavior. You know, he's been very rude, beaming down and making fun of us! Because of him, they had to turn off A/C in our cabins so that extra cooling could be directed to the server rooms! Just thought you'd want to know. Please give him stern punishment! Also, Humidity, who usually assists you while you are here, has colluded with Sun to make us quite miserable. You might want to note that for her annual performance review.
How are your parents, Mr Altocumulus Cloud and Mrs Stratocumulus Cloud doing? I'd seen some folks of your extended Cloud family recently, but they told they were just passing by and wouldn't be stopping for long. Your little cousin Drizzle was with them and said hi. I hope he grows to be as bright and illustrious as you! :)
I heard you've been visiting Raleigh, NC and New Jersey, lately. Please do let me know if you folks need anything, I have friends there. I don't know if you've been to New York City before, but if you haven't and do get a chance, I urge you to check it out.
I don't know if this will tempt you, but if you want to come back sooner, I'm willing to gift you a United Airlines coupon worth $25. Also, it will be much faster than hiking your way back here. They often have cute stewardesses and if you ask nicely, they even give you extra drinks. :)
I hope you will be back soon. Seattle feels very dull and boring in your absence.
Lots of love and hugs,
Your loving friend, Rooju.
PS: If you didn't believe what I said about Sun and Humidity, check this out: http://www.komonews.com/news/51869862.html
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Hear ye! Hear ye! All music lovers!
Its just been about half and hour since I discovered them, so I don't have many recommendations, but do look for:
Ulrich Schnauss - Faraway Trains Passing By
Ulrich Schnauss - Knuddelmaus
Jon Hopkins - Lost In Thought
Jon Hopkins - Inner Peace
Jon Hopkins - Light Through The Veins
Light Through The Veins was also used by Coldplay as a beginning to their amazing instrumental version of "Life in Technicolor". They also kept playing it as background music at their July 11 concert here at the Gorge while the crew was setting the stage up!
From Hopkins's website:
JON HOPKINS ON COLDPLAY..
I was introduced to Coldplay by Brian Eno at the beginning of 2007 - he asked me to come into their studio for a day to play some keyboards and jam with the band.
It went great and we all got on really well, and I ended up being asked back for much of the recording of the album.
Then when Chris heard my track Light Through The Veins he asked me to open for the band on tour, and also started working on a vocal melody, which was later to become The Escapist. On top of that the instrumental version became the intro to Life In Technicolor.
I had always been a fan of the band so this was all pretty surreal and amazing for me, as you might imagine.
I opened shows for them all over the US, UK and Japan, playing tracks from my new album "Insides", which contains the original version of Light Through The Veins, plus nine new tracks. I hope you like it. -- Jon Hopkins
Quite amazing! I just had to say this to someone!!